Now people they often look at me , perceive me and than ask why , where , when and how? They look at me and feel disgusted and dissapointed that i am so abnormal in my ways of living.
In a place like India, where i grew and where i live , being what i am is not very pleasant for the eyes.
So everytime some so called well wisher of mine comes upto me, he or she has either questions of why or suggestions like change.
So today i wanna tell all of them a small story , a peek into my life , so that they know when, where , how and why?
WHEN , to tell you the truth , it all began when i was born. You see , what i am is not what you decide one sudden day , visit your salon and chop your hairs , steal your fathers baggy shirt and hit the street. It's not that easy.
I see many young kids doing that nowadays.
But in my case it wasn't so. I WAS BORN TOMBOY.
Where , why and how?
I live in a small Indian village , my father is a soldier in the army and i am one of the millions of people who breath and die in the so called cream of middle class society. I have a mother who is hearing deficit and a sister fragile in health.
Now how this comes in relation to me being a tomboy? Simple , we saw our father twice a year for not more than a month , we were living in a society where not having a son was a curse and my family needed me to be someone they can rely upon.
So i became their son.
Everytime my dad left home , he would say , " I don't have a son but you are my son. So be strong and take care of your mother and your sister. "
My parents taught me that being a son , being a brother , it's not about the gender , its about the courage , the responsibility and the duty that you carry in your heart.
I was all that my mother and my sister had , i was their father , their brother, their son and all that they couldn't have. I grew a little fast because i had to become strong but i don't regret no nothing for it all made me who i am.
I am strong for the mother who took so much criticism from the society for not bearing a son , i am strong for the father who fights for the motherland and trusts that i will fight for his wife and daughter , i am strong for a sister who didn't get to grow up in a father's arms , i am strong for everyone who believes that i can be strong.
Living in a land that is not ours, where we are immigrants , surrounded by people who are not ours and surviving with all might , life wasn't a piece of cake where i grew up.
So all of us , not just me , we tried our best . We became everything that we could be and everything we couldn't be to survive, to grow and to carry on.
And if being strong, being what my family needs me to be, makes me manly , abnormal , weird and whatever they call me , than be it! I am accepting everything.
Now this is a little insight to why i am a little manly in character , why i am not feminine , why i don't cry watching dramas and why i kick every guys ass who dare tease my sister.
But that people say you can do that with long hairs and skirts on . You don't need to be like short hairs and so much butch in appearance.
For that i have just one answer , its my personal choice. I feel like having short hairs , i like baggy clothes and i am comfortable in a Tom's skin.
There is no reason, no causes , no why and no how to my appearance. Maybe the fact that i grew up with four guys along as companions and i was never treated like a daughter made my preferences, but this is my skin, my way of life and living. No reason and comparison is there for it, its just what i choose to be.
I am manly in character because that is what life made of me , i choose to be boyish in appearance because that is what i am.
A TOMBOY.
In a place like India, where i grew and where i live , being what i am is not very pleasant for the eyes.
So everytime some so called well wisher of mine comes upto me, he or she has either questions of why or suggestions like change.
So today i wanna tell all of them a small story , a peek into my life , so that they know when, where , how and why?
WHEN , to tell you the truth , it all began when i was born. You see , what i am is not what you decide one sudden day , visit your salon and chop your hairs , steal your fathers baggy shirt and hit the street. It's not that easy.
I see many young kids doing that nowadays.
But in my case it wasn't so. I WAS BORN TOMBOY.
Where , why and how?
I live in a small Indian village , my father is a soldier in the army and i am one of the millions of people who breath and die in the so called cream of middle class society. I have a mother who is hearing deficit and a sister fragile in health.
Now how this comes in relation to me being a tomboy? Simple , we saw our father twice a year for not more than a month , we were living in a society where not having a son was a curse and my family needed me to be someone they can rely upon.
So i became their son.
Everytime my dad left home , he would say , " I don't have a son but you are my son. So be strong and take care of your mother and your sister. "
My parents taught me that being a son , being a brother , it's not about the gender , its about the courage , the responsibility and the duty that you carry in your heart.
I was all that my mother and my sister had , i was their father , their brother, their son and all that they couldn't have. I grew a little fast because i had to become strong but i don't regret no nothing for it all made me who i am.
I am strong for the mother who took so much criticism from the society for not bearing a son , i am strong for the father who fights for the motherland and trusts that i will fight for his wife and daughter , i am strong for a sister who didn't get to grow up in a father's arms , i am strong for everyone who believes that i can be strong.
Living in a land that is not ours, where we are immigrants , surrounded by people who are not ours and surviving with all might , life wasn't a piece of cake where i grew up.
So all of us , not just me , we tried our best . We became everything that we could be and everything we couldn't be to survive, to grow and to carry on.
And if being strong, being what my family needs me to be, makes me manly , abnormal , weird and whatever they call me , than be it! I am accepting everything.
Now this is a little insight to why i am a little manly in character , why i am not feminine , why i don't cry watching dramas and why i kick every guys ass who dare tease my sister.
But that people say you can do that with long hairs and skirts on . You don't need to be like short hairs and so much butch in appearance.
For that i have just one answer , its my personal choice. I feel like having short hairs , i like baggy clothes and i am comfortable in a Tom's skin.
There is no reason, no causes , no why and no how to my appearance. Maybe the fact that i grew up with four guys along as companions and i was never treated like a daughter made my preferences, but this is my skin, my way of life and living. No reason and comparison is there for it, its just what i choose to be.
I am manly in character because that is what life made of me , i choose to be boyish in appearance because that is what i am.
A TOMBOY.
